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Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Once bitten, twice shy, third time, it will be my turn to bite :)

At first, i was afraid, kinda shy. I had several reasons, the most prominent being my fear of water! In my previous river rafting trip, i was with my V5 group - the langotiya yaars! there was room for chickening out :D Also, the first time, i was almost in a frenzy, too excited a state to fear... but this time, i was much more in my senses, quite literally too, if u know what i mean ;D.

And so it began, late at night, after dinner, a spook and a few -you know what. I was tired at first, willing to wither away cozily into the night, but the sheer excitement of being together is something that can keep you up and awake all night long!

Day -1 : after a long wait, ah... a sight for sour eyes... and sour 'chunnu-munnu' i say, its about time! ;D




We finally got to ride something other than our Innovas - a raft. But hold your horses, for this was a ferry raft, to take us to our camps - a beautiful sight of white sand and stones, tents waiting under the shadow of the mountains, the river singing its song, sunlight kissing the peaks and the cool breeze playing with your hair... sigh...!!!



I couldn't resist this feast for eyes and soon after unpacking, went wandering alone into the stones. While some played volleyball and others freshened up, i went talking to the Ganga! Sweet, harmonious, swift and mighty... embrace the waters and all your tiredness goes away.

Soon after having some breakfast, we were roaring to go - bring it on baby!!!


As usual, we started with the safety instructions and all that jazz. Boarded the raft and minutes after, it went all wet and soggy =D, what with all the body surfing, hands-free 'kayaking', basking in the waters, getting all 'teamy' against the neighbour rafts, it was all too much fun! Divya's face was one of the kodak moments of our trip. When the instructor first told us to go dip in the Ganga, she was so enthused, she dint even count to 3 and jumped - but dear o' dear... she was gasping for air the second later - 'saari hawa nikal gayi' ;D


And how can our beloved cliff jumping be left behind!!! ;D


Daringly enough (lol), i was the first one to jump off the cliff - but as is the problem with being punctual, there was no one to appreciate me :P I was like - i will hit the water NOW... i will hit the water NOW.... i will hit the water NOW....!!! when the hell will i brrrbrrrbrrrbrrrbrrrbrrbrbrbr... - i did it :D
Kirti's 'k'ase was as intersting one here. She was a victim of 'peer pressure'. 'Ab toh main kood hi jaaon... isi main bhalaayi hai... nahin toh sab pakad ke khoob maarenge!' ;D
Golf Course and Roller Coaster were the two biggies out there that we enjoyed the most!

After a thoroughly tiring drift, we attacked the food like hell! Don't remember how it tasted, but yeah... it felt delicious ;)

On the way back to our camps... we literally switched off and went into hibernation! but after reaching there... our batteries were somehow magically charged and while some of us went for rappelling and rock climbing, others simply chit-chatted.


 What ensued thereafter was the most cherishable moment of the trip for me - those three mugs of tea sitting together at the Ganges, discussing about love, life, relationships,  events...future, past, present, ... friends, parents, people... =)





As it got darker, the bonfire mood began to catch up! But somehow, sitting there in the circle, i still felt alone... although i was able steal a moment or two for myself, but quickly realised i should keep this feeling at bay, lest it resume control and ruin everything. After that, was an interesting round of useless introductions and dinner. But wait... the night didn't get over at this! There's more than just 'night trekking' to it! - with all the mortal souls in front of me, it was a scare fest...(evil grin...) hahaha. Boy o' boy... that was some night to remember. Oh and I did hear the next day from a few boys that someone in the group was being carried by 6 people across the whole trekk. How i missed 'victimising' her! =D

The weather was so nice, that some of us decided to sleep outside our camps and under the stars - a la 'Taaron ki chaaon main' =D. The night was a bit less starry though, due to clouds. However, as i suddenly woke up in the middle of the night for some strange inexplicable reason, i found the night sky adorned with all kinds of stars and constellations. The next thing i remember is waking up to a camera cheese in the morning - being freshly served by Maryam of course :D.


After that was a thrilling session of Rock Climbing and Rappelling. And believe me, i am not telling you even the half of it when i say that somehow i felt my monkey instincts made me do it that day =D

And thereafter we had the wall... or should i write The WALL !!! The mother of 'em all - this was really hyper stuff - the real sh** if you know what i mean :P. So much so that i was scared into going through it in a larger raft than others - for its chances of flipping were lesser. As fate had it, our raft did not flip, but not before throwing out two of its members - and i was right there... in the balcony seat, eating popcorns. Must confess - it was FUN FUN FUN lolu :D :D :D 

After a few more rapids in the river, we were changing clothes for Delhi.
This is still not the end! For some of the best times we had were now! With Maryam in the drivers seat and no license, one could only imagine the laugh riot that engulfed us!!! I am telling you, even as i write this line, i can have cramps in my stomach anytime ;D.
After having chai-cum-'thunda'-cum-dinner at a dhaba, we decorated a stage for the shayars and the 'shayaree's'.
Bewafai ki baat chali thi toh maine socha main bhi ek sher maar doon - par khambakht sher bhi usi ki tarah dhokha de gaya, kareeb aane se pehle hi dughaa de gaya!!! - wah wah - wah wah :P

After the 'Mehfil' and a fixed flat tyre that ironically is labelled to be 'flat-free'! we set sail again to our complacent lives!

After flying for a few more hours, we wake up to the reality again,

In the wee hours of the morning, with half opened weary eyes, we wished our fair-bid adieus.
and...

With new friends in hands and new memories in our hearts,
we parted to be together again, we forgot... to be remembered again!






Saturday, March 27, 2010

The feeling that is sinking in

Today, or more specifically - Tonight, this.... this 'thing' hit me again! and this time, its one time too many. I feel all alone once again and I don't know whether its they who have changed or its me! I know for certain that i have changed - but did i change in this way!? or is it that i am seeing what i want to see ! i don't know for certain...


I feel like i am growing distant to it all. and the worst part is... that i don't have anyone to help me out on this one. i cant go to them and ask why have you become so different ? You weren't like this ? were you ? i can feel the differences among us growing... i can see the ways parting.


One of the life's biggest questions that you face at times is, whom do you turn for help when the ones you trust are the ones in question ? When you don't feel like being part of them anymore... when you are not at peace with who you are or what you have become...


Oddly enough, the answer comes from no-one but you !!!
The answer is always within you, either you are not ready to accept it,
or you want to hear it out loud from someone, if not God himself!

In my case, an old friend reminded me of my own words and showed me the way.
All i have to do now is walk!!!

No matter how lonesome the path may be, 
no matter how testing the ways may be,
i have to keep walking... its the only way to reach 
the destination... its the only answer to all my questions...


PS:-

* this month of March, March of 2010... its different.... there is definitely something very peculiar about it... something just doesn't feel normal about it! This whole month has been topsy turvy...

* i feel happy by day and sad by night. Once upon a time it used to be the opposite though.

* I think this is definitely one of the confusing posts that i have written, and will leave the reader befuddled!!! - mainly because a lot of thoughts, emotions, and a barrage of feelings have accosted me at this point of time and i have tried to write about one of them, hiding all other when they are desperately trying to break loose!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

LEARN...

Just when i thot that there was no ending...
there's this little something that was whispered to me

and it seems...

these words come from a distant land...

a place where i once belonged... a place that i believed in...
a place, where i was the whisperer...once... :)

but it all seems too hazy... i dont even remember clearly
whether it was actually me or something inside me....

whatever it was... it certainly isnt there any more...

I did used to like it pretty much...
it was the source of my power... my energy,
my life...

but somewhere down the line... i lost it... i just lost it...

but like the sand in the sea... i lay there on the bottom...still...
when the whisper stirred the waters.... 'wake up' was the call....

"
n dont b so sad...think gona b ohk...all well dat ends well...n if things are not well den dats nevr da end:).
"

an ode to an ol' frnd... cheerful as ever... may she always be like this...

"
things will be fyn...evrytime u hve ups n down...n we learns to smile:)
if not for ourslf den for others....lifebecome worth living
cheerup:)
"

yes... i need to learn....

learn
to smile,

learn
to smile for others,

if not me... :)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

RUN AWAY...

  
What if... one fine day, you wake up to find that somethings' wrong !
What if... you realize u have been down this lane before...
and that the last time, it wasn't pretty... it wasn't pretty at all !!!!
In fact it gets messy everytime u have been there...

And what if... you know there's no turning back...

u have to go through this all over again,
u have to go through this... all alone...

that u cannot alleviate the pain in any way...

that u will be tormented... yet again...
that u will be crying your heart out... yet again...

that u will be left for the dead... yet again...

that u cannot hide,
that u cannot escape,

that u have to endure it... once again,
and that u have to live through it... once again...

that u cannot tell anyone... not again...
that no one will understand... not again...
that u will understand... not again...


What if...

u realize....

that u cannot run...

u cannot RUN AWAY...

not again... not again...


Thursday, April 23, 2009

PROFESSOR'S Mail : Enjoy the coffee.... not the cup



    A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor.

Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.





   Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.


   When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: 'If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones.. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.





   Now if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change. Some times, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it.'



Don't let the cups drive you.. Enjoy the coffee instead