LEARN...

Just when i thot that there was no ending...
there's this little something that was whispered to me

and it seems...

these words come from a distant land...

a place where i once belonged... a place that i believed in...
a place, where i was the whisperer...once... :)

but it all seems too hazy... i dont even remember clearly
whether it was actually me or something inside me....

whatever it was... it certainly isnt there any more...

I did used to like it pretty much...
it was the source of my power... my energy,
my life...

but somewhere down the line... i lost it... i just lost it...

but like the sand in the sea... i lay there on the bottom...still...
when the whisper stirred the waters.... 'wake up' was the call....

"
n dont b so sad...think gona b ohk...all well dat ends well...n if things are not well den dats nevr da end:).
"

an ode to an ol' frnd... cheerful as ever... may she always be like this...

"
things will be fyn...evrytime u hve ups n down...n we learns to smile:)

if not for ourslf den for others....lifebecome worth living

cheerup:)

"

yes... i need to learn....

learn to smile,

learn to smile for others,

if not me... :)

RUN AWAY...

  
  What if... one fine day, you wake up to find that somethings' wrong !
What if... you realize u have been down this lane before...
and that the last time, it wasn't pretty... it wasn't pretty at all !!!!
In fact it gets messy everytime u have been there...

And what if... you know there's no turning back...

u have to go through this all over again,
u have to go through this... all alone...

that u cannot alleviate the pain in any way...

that u will be tormented... yet again...
that u will be crying your heart out... yet again...
that u will be left for the dead... yet again...

that u cannot hide,
that u cannot escape,

that u have to endure it... once again,
and that u have to live through it... once again...

that u cannot tell anyone... not again...
that no one will understand... not again...
that u will understand... not again...


What if...

u realize....

that u cannot run...

u cannot RUN AWAY...

not again... not again...

PROFESSOR'S Mail : Enjoy the coffee.... not the cup

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.    Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.    When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: 'If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones.. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.    Now if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change. Some times, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it.' Don't let the cups drive you.. Enjoy the coffee instead

---

BLACK MAGIC WOMAN

What comes to your mind when u hear the words 'BLACK MAGIC WOMAN' ???

The term 'black' makes its sound eerie, evil of sorts...'Magic' makes it mysterious, mystical...and with that the word 'Woman' is like bang... sending shivers down your spine,a fantasy come true,

The combination of these three is deadly...
femme fatale at its best...

Imagine...

a lady in black, tall and dusky,sleek and slender,
standing across the hallway,
shimmering in a satin black gown...
kissing the flute of wine,
with a sparkling necklace adorning her neck,
her earrings playing hide n seek,
her glances casting spells on everyone,


with a mesmerizing calmness on her face,
she looks at you,
you shy away,
look again, and she's still here...
but what's this...
she's coming your way,
her eyes hypnotising you as you struggle to get free,
her killer stilettos freezing time with every step,

the once distant figure... now becoming true by the second,

her disarming smile,
inching closer with every step,

enticing the evil within,
dissolving everything else into darkness,
she is right there in front of you,

as you struggle to catch your breath,
sorting out jumbled words tumbling down in your mind,

reinforcing yourself, you hold your breath...

but hey.... whats this....

she just swam past you...

haplessly , gasping for air, you gather yourself,
whats left of her is her hypnotising aroma,
as you try to take the last whiff,

there she is ... walking away...
trying to figure out what just happened,
you suddenly notice...

her eyes grab your your attention,
she turns her head a little, stealing a glance of you...
you catch her eyes red handed... and her smile knives down your heart...

with a thirst in your eyes, you are left asking for more...


You wouldn't help but wonder why i tell u all this... ???

WHY ???

I tell u all this... for i know one such lady... ;)

" I got a Black Magic Woman.
I got a Black Magic Woman.
Yes, I got a Black Magic Woman,
She's got me so blind I can't see;
But she's a Black Magic Woman and
she's trying to make a devil out of me.

Don't turn your back on me, baby.
Don't turn your back on me, baby.
Yes, don't turn your back on me, baby,
Don't mess around with your tricks;
Don't turn your back on me, baby,
'cause you might just wake up my magic sticks.

You got your spell on me, baby.
You got your spell on me, baby.
Yes, you got your spell on me, baby,
Turnin' my heart into stone;
I need you so bad,
Magic Woman I can't leave you alone. "

- 'Black Magic Woman' by Carlos Santana

'TECH LAB' ICE AGE ki YAADEIN... ;)

When the training at HCL got over, I was worried that the group may get disintegrated and the times we used to laugh would be snatched away from us.

Then came the along the days of Skillports and Process Training, which were a pleasant surprise. What with all the masti in completing each others skill port courses and the ‘Balee ka bakra’ chakkar :P.

But what followed was totally unexpected!!! :D

Starting days were just tafri days, all we used to do was hang in the cafeteria playing TT and pool. A few of us got assigned their cubicles (Arun and Swati), and some of us got whole rooms full of computers all to themselves (Vaibhav and Mandvika) :D It was this tech lab room that became the hub of our matargasti and thuss. What haven’t we talked about in there. Starting from the cutie to the gadaadhaari (No Offenses to anyone intended), from vaibhav’s art galleries to my own PJs, from cost cutting to holiday destinations, from phuket beaches to Bamiyaan’s Buddha, from temples to wild animals, from himachal’s hill stations to ‘satpura ke ghane jangal, uunghte anmane jangal’…

However, two... ummm…. what should is say... limelight grabbers ;)… have been - the horror show and the love bites.

Horror show takes the coveted runner’s up position, an intense show, complete with slow voice and decorated with turned off lights, it was an event to remember.

From Vaibhav’s – ‘One Wrong Foot’ to Mandvika’s ‘Monkey Man’ and the ‘Dadaji and Driver’ tale; from Sanjay’s picturesque desert wind with lantern in the castle (that too atop a hill) to my own spirit meets, it was all there.

And the priced position- the winner is our session of - love bites. Not many people know about this, but this was the gem of all the talks. Although this was held in the cafeteria, but it managed to qualify as it was still one of the chats belonging to the ice age… as a matter of fact, it was the icy cold of tech lab that drew us towards that cuppa coffee, where we all sat on that very special table, and opened our hearts out. Just to make sure that everybody’s on the same page, there were 4 people who took part in this session – Sanjay, Saurabh, Maryam and last, but by no means least, myself :D. Although one of us turned out to be an alien, you know whom m talking bout, but rest of us were pretty much humans… who had experienced all the usual emotions of joy…for someone, care for someone, wait of someone, anxiety of meeting someone, longing for someone, fear of someone’s rejection…and the ever so common desire of that moment of sweet awkwardness, where the racing heartbeat reveals itself as the symphony of love…

I wrote this entry as an ode to those ‘nutty’ ice age days. Those small-small moments, they are priceless, to be cherished forever as they are what brought us close, in the beginning of what is to be a life-long journey where we have just put forward our first few steps. I know, that these memories are not going to last forever, and slowly they may fade away, and parting ways may become inevitable, but it is for this reason that I would like to quote someone,

“One of the reasons why people hold on to memories so tight is because memories are the only thing that don’t change when everything else does.”

And on a happier note, I hope that that someone is not just anyone, but the melodious one :)

I KNEW... IT WAS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE... :)

Enfin... Je suis ici :D
Finally m here to write down something...lolzz :)
Its been way too long that i have stayed away from mon blog !!!

I tried to write several things, but then, it happens only when its destined to happen.
And same has been the case with something that had been going on with me for the past few weeks...

It was refreshingly different, almost a surprise....well not almost, but surely 100% a surprise :)

It came when i had left all my hopes, all my expectations and all my previous notions behind!!!
It came as a life saver, a breather, as a new ray of hope, and oasis in a desert, but then...
the desert is destined to be dry...aint it ?!?!?!?!?
as always, this also dint last long...
it got over today....

i was hoping that i was onto something,
i had got what i had hoped for...

is it true, is it real !?!?!?!
m i in some kinda dream ????!?!?!
i pinched myself at times, only to find myself blushing

i cudnt believe that this was happening...
It all took me back those source code days... when i witnessed it for the first time...

Alas... all good things have to come to an end,
for i know,
its too good to be true...
its too good to be true...

VALENTINE VENDETTA

I tried so hard to write something innovative
this valentine,did save some drafts,
but to no avail.


I had quite a few ideas, but then
couldn't express them properly, guess the
emotions were too high to be controlled :P

"Maybe, next year... i will give it to someone special,..."
one about whom i would be able to atleast
make a valentine entry in my blog.

As for now, its still
me n meri tanhayee !!!!

m kinda getting bored with this !!!
seriously...

LOVE IS IN THE AIR.....AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well well, what do we have here....
is it just another day ?
No NO, it is that dreaded doomsday,
commonly known by the name of
Valentine's day!!!

yeah, doomsday it is,
for all of us who are not blessed
by the femme fatale !!!
or even femme, let alone the fatale part !!!

It is that time of the year,
when the cosmos conspires against us.
Everyone, from the friends, to newspapers,
TV, radio and even Airtel starts singing
those dreaded love songs that can make
a happy bachelor go weak in his knees !!!

Everywhere u look, gardens, parks,
malls, market places,
even the roadside Gol - gappe wala is
catering to the love birds,
and nobody cares about us loners !!!

And why the hell should he ?
Even the roadside beggar knows,

" मैम्साब साथ होंगी, तभी कुछ बात बनेगी "

Every boy is hooked to his girl,
make that girl'S', on the phone, sms , cards, chocolates,
roses, be it in a car, or a be it a 'Buck-up' team.
Being an owner of a bike, and forced to see
buck up teams cruising and 'braking' on the road
is a torture for a loner.

i feel all the more jealous.

The Professor's Mails.... PUT THE GLASS DOWN....TODAY

A Professor began his class by holding up a glass
with some water in it. He held it up for all to see
& asked the students

"How much do you think this glass weighs?

'50gms!' .... '100gms!' .....'125gms'...the students answered.

"I really don't know unless I weigh it," said the
professor, "but, my question is:
What would happen if I held it
up like this for a few minutes?"

'Nothing' .....the students said.

'Ok what would happen if I held it up like this for
an hour?' the professor asked.

'Your arm would begin to ache' said one of the
student.

"You're right, now what would happen if I held it
for a day?"

"Your arm could go numb, you might have severe
muscle stress & paralysis &
have to go to hospital for sure!"

...... ventured another student & all the students
laughed "Very good.
But during all this, did the weight of the glass
change?" asked the professor.

'No'.... Was the answer. *

"Then what caused the arm ache & the muscle
stress?"

The students were puzzled.

"What should I do now to come out of pain?" asked
professor again.

"Put the glass down!" said one of the students*

"Exactly!" said the professor.

Life's problems are something like this.
Hold it for a few minutes in your head & they seem
OK. Think of them for a long time & they begin to ache.
Hold it even longer & they begin to paralyze you.
You will not be able to do anything.
It's important to think of the challenges or
problems in your life,
but EVEN MORE IMPORTANT is to 'PUT THEM DOWN' at the
end of every day before
You go to sleep.
That way, you are not stressed, you wake up every
day fresh & strong & can handle any issue,
any challenge that comes your way!
So, When you leave office today,
Remember to.....

* 'PUT THE GLASS DOWN TODAY!' *